The best plan

Salam a dobry den!


just finished my anatomy final..alhamdulillah! hanya itu yang dapat saya ucapkan.

Memang hebat kuasa Tuhan itu. Allah yang Maha Kuasa!

Why did I say that? Firstly, I am verrrryyyyyy thankful that I came here to Hradec Kralove, Czech Republic (Sebuah bandar yang tersangat lah aman dan damai! =D ). Before this in KMB, I was so devastated when I failed my interview with the Otago University (hoho..mataku bengkak2..malu btol). I was so looking forward to go to the Aussie or NZ..my childhood dream..and plus, knowing that my 2 besties, Nad and Dee are going there without me..

When I had accepted that Otago was not my rezeki, and I was offered to apply for the Czech university (Hradec Kralove)..at first, I was like,

"err...mana plak tempat ni? Apa benda alahnye hradec ni..nak sebut pun payah "

But, thanks to Koin..because of her words..I felt, oklah..at least I had a better view about the university and life in here =) So, I set my new goal. Study well for my entrance exam.

Suddenly, while waiting for the result of the entrance exam (which was after the IB exam), a new offer came. My name was suddenly listed in the applicants of the Newcastle University, Australia. I was so happy, felt like I still have the chance to go to the kangaroo land and again..Alhamdulillah..I passed the interview, filled up the application form and sent it to Pn Sharifah (our placement officer).

When the result of the IB exam came out, (Alhamdulillah again!) I was eligible to be sent overseas and my requirement fulfilled the Newcastle University.

But,

I don't know why, suddenly I felt, maybe its better for me to go to the Czech. My brain had started to create all the reasons why I should go to Czech and why I shouldn't go to Aussie. Alas, here I am, on the 7th floor of Palachova koleje.

BUT,

Well, the story does not end here just like that. This is not a happily ever after cinderella story where the good endings came out when all the conflicts were surpassed (macam plot novel dalam Malay A1 IB plak..huhu)

The system of study in this university WILL give you a culture shock! No kidding. Its totally different with the system of all universities in UK and Ireland. Totally! We've got test EVERY DAY. Yes, people. Everyday. And all those tests are important. Its like a ticket for you to take the final. Pass the test up to certain percentage and you go to the final. Your tests performances are bad, then you got to repeat them all together until you pass. And 3 times only.

I was among the people who repeated and repeated and repeated the tests. It was depressing and that was among the hardest part I ever first encountered in my life.

But Alhamdulillah...

Allah is the best planner. Because of all these hardships,
I am learning to always ask for His help.
I am learning to reflect myself.
I am learning to believe everything happens for a reason that only He knows.
I am learning that patience will pay off.
I am learning to be stronger than yesterday
I am learning that exams, career are not the ONLY purpose in life.
I am learning that He knows best.
and I am still learning..

So then, I still can't express how grateful I am to be here. I've got the chance to meet kawan2 and kakak2 senior yang semuanya baik2. I've got to learn a totally new, different language. I've got to encounter lots of new experience and most importantly, Alhamdulillah I still have the chance to learn more about my own Deen, something that I never thought seriously before.

Now,
from my story of the day,

life is nothing without tests and hardships.

I believe, there are still lots more to come (Histo ku masih belum selesai lagi..chaiyo2!!). You passed one test, you gain something. After that, you'll encounter more challenging tests and you'll learn something bigger. This is all Allah's plan for us and believe me, for our good. Maybe we thought at that time, why me? why this is all happening to me? But my dear readers, never lose hope on Allah. Who are us to questioned Him? and He is Ar-Rahman, Ar-Rahim. He knows what best for us.


"Apakah manusia mengira bahawa mereka akan dibiarkan dengan hanya mengatakan, 'Kami telah beriman,' dan mereka tidak diuji?"

(Surah Al-Ankabut 29: 2)

"Diwajibkan ke atas kamu berperang, padahal itu tidak menyenangkan bagimu. Tetapi boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal itu baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagimu. Allah mengetahui sedangkan kamu tidak mengetahui?"

(Surah Al-Baqarah 2: 216)

"Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. Dia mendapat (pahala) dan (kebajikan) yang dikerjakannya dan dia mendapat (siksa) dari (kejahatan) yang diperbuatnya...."

(Surah Al-Baqarah 2: 286)

I think I have said a lot this time..(Sorry everyone!) and I believe the message is told. Till next time, salam a na shledanou.

p/s: mau pulang ke tanah air....! huwaaaa~
pp/s: ade histo menanti...sila jgn relax2 lg fathin aina!